Following my Bliss
When I was in college, I read a lot of Joseph Campbell. I was an art major, which really meant I could indulge in whatever I wondered, craved or dreamt of. My thoughts were fairly evenly split between science and religion, so naturally I loved Joseph Campbell. One thing he said that has always stayed with me is, “follow your bliss”. It is such a nice idea, but really did not feel practical. I graduated from college swimming in student loan debt and holding a shiny new art degree…. sadly it wasn’t quite as marketable as the geo-physics program I started out in. So I found a job working in engineering and dutifully paid my loans, not really loving my job and missing the days of submerging myself in my own thoughts while working out ideas and questions through art. A little over a decade later I started having children; my husband and I knew I couldn’t return to work. I wanted and needed to be home with our son. I left the office and started an engineering based company out of the house. It was great, I could be home with my child and help support our family… but again, I didn’t love it. After about 4 years and another baby boy, this idea of following my bliss was feeling very important. Putting food on the table is very important, but how can I teach my boys to be all they can be if I don’t give my own dreams a try? So here I am, nearly 40, taking a leap, breaking myself from the known and comfortable to go after the things which set my mind moving.
I have a long history and deep love of fabric and sewing, the traditions, the history, the beauty and skill – I love all of it. Much of my work in college was fabric based, it really is a part of who I am. I have been designing quilts for years, most are drawn and never made, now I am giving myself permission to make them. I have had an ESTY shop for a few years, I used it for invites. Whenever I made an invite for my own family I would post it for sale on ETSY. For the past few months I have been working on my quilts and slowly adding them to the ETSY shop. I am writing out the patterns for sale as well – those years in engineering sure have come in handy in the pattern writing department! I feel this endeavor can only have a positive outcome! Of course, there will be work and the monetary gains are not quite are fast as in my former business but I now look forward to working each night and go to sleep dreaming of what I will do next!
I think I am beginning to understand what he meant when he said to “follow your bliss” and I am looking forward to each step!